Not what you want to read, I know. A lot of things have transpired over the last 24 hours. I get it.

I do not have the strength to post a lengthier article on what has happened, however I see that I somehow must. I am beat. No recovery.

I stayed quiet last year not because I don’t support the community of my fellow earthbound humans with different beliefs and identities (those that identify as LGBTQ+), no, I stayed quiet because I know what has been said was wrong and I didn’t want it to happen again — so I hid away, culled my site of anything personal. Build back up confidence after clearly being wrong after being made aware of the fact. Know that I support you no matter how you identify — it has never ever crossed my mind to treat people differently because of who they are. Never.

I’m telling you here, now, that I am close to just packing it in — never to be seen again. I felt shame that I offended someone so profoundly, and it never crossed my mind that a seemingly off the cuff stupid rant would cause this — I should have known better. It hit a deep nerve.

I also didn’t post anything because of how it all played out, especially around timelines, communications and just confusion when it came to light. I am not here to throw anyone under the bus. It’s not me. It’s not who I am. So I won’t.

Now there is a skewed view of who I am. Whatever you might think, I respect this and there will never be anything I can do to correct that. So be it. This is the problem about staying silent. For me I realised too late that silence is golden. I took that view after the events of last year. I posted a lot of negativity across many unrelated issues and seeing this has taught me to never do it again. Sometimes I still fail at that but I try and self correct. Social is full of negativity and this was the inflection point for me.

I have privately apologised multiple times and I’d like to say that this is what I think was best. Not to save face, but because something private is more personal to me than a public blog post. It was between her and me.

I regret my past actions deeply. It was stupid and insensitive.

I deeply respect anyone that called me out, and I also deeply respect communities that are trying to help and provide a safe haven. We live in strange times and I hope we can just get along no matter how rough the waters that we cannot personally control. Everyone is trying to do their best, and people make mistakes all the time, it makes us human.

You may label me how you want. Know that I will never label you.

God bless.

[Update] I wrote a further post to go into more detail, perhaps this gives a little bit of context. Optional reading and not forced if you don't want to.